So So Suck Your Toe All the Way to Pro-o-vo

So, I've been thinking about this a lot, and I have come to a decision. I am going to stay in Provo, UT, for Spring and Summer semesters. I am going to take classes and get a sweet sweet tan. Bring on the sunshine.
I will miss my family and my friends and my sweet little East Coast. But. This is what I'm going to do. I feel like it's time to finally catch up with my academic career before I am a real grown-up and life bites me in the face.
I think that would hurt...

All I need now is a place to live, and a job.

Adventures With the Cranky Babies

And how.

I am a jumpy person. Last night I was in the library studying with Tyler, and I was listening to my iPod. I had the volume turned up pretty loud, because, there is so much noise in the library. Right. Anyway, one song was pretty quiet, and then the next was comparably really very loud. It started out so loud that I screamed. I thought someone was attacking me. This could have been partly due to the fact that I was almost asleep and thinking in German. But after I screamed, I was pretty awake. Luckily, we were in a back corner of the library and there were only two other girls around us. But I am pretty sure I scared everyone. Wooh...

So, I think that the library induces sleepiness. And weirdness. Especially late at night.

"Ooooooohhh, that feels niiice!"

I'm Back...

I'm back in Provo. And I'm not gonna lie, I was not excited to be back. And I am still not excited to be back. I am, however, excited to leave after April! Sweet Freedom, come to me!

I made a New Year's resolution. I am going to try to be nice. Honestly I am. I'm trying not to make little snide remarks about other people, or gossip, or blah blah blah. Either way, I'm trying to be nicer. But really, it wasn't just because it was a new year, I just feel like it would be a good thing to do. And let me tell you, it's definitely easier to say that I'm going to be nice than actually BE nice.

It seems like as soon as I started trying harder to have good feelings toward others, I just have worse feelings towards some of them. Like, today, for instance, I walked into a room, and it felt like all of the good that was inside of me, left. And I was just standing there, quivering with anger, or loathing, that's probably too strong of a word... But, you get the gist, right? In some cases though, it has become easier to be nicer. I was very surprised. Very. Very, very, surprised.

I knew that this was going to be hard for me because I have tried to do it before. And, obviously it was hard, because, here I am again. A little meany out trying to be a goody. Bah. Cross your fingers for me, eh.

I have devised a plan to keep my sanity. I will be studying at the Provo library from now on. Okay, not Mondays or Tuesdays, but the rest of the week is all about the library. From 5 pm to 9 pm, I'm there.

I am really glad that I got to see my family over Christmas. They brought me back from my world of bad smells and imminent and impending doom. I wish I could have all of them here with me. I don't know what I would do without my family. They're all pretty awesome. Personally, I think that they're the bees-knees. Yeah.